help me, morissey. you are my only hope

i haven't been able to get this song out of my head (and i hope you notice how long it's been since i've posted smiths lyrics):

Smoke
Lingers 'round your fingers
Train
Heave on - to Euston
Do you think you've made
The right decision this time ?
Oh ...

You left
Your tired family grieving
And you think they're sad because you're leaving
But did you see Jealousy in the eyes
Of the ones who had to stay behind ?
And do you think you've made
The right decision this time ?


You left
Your girlfriend on the platform
With this really ragged notion that you'll return
But she knows
That when he goes
He really goes
And do you think you've made
The right decision this time ?

if there's any confusion, i haven't made a decision. i'm going nowhere (fast) for a while. but i can't sleep at night for the thought of the sound of trains heading south, and what it means.

and the idea that my family would be jealous of me is a little out of sync.