my inability to decide has become chronic. the other day, i actually had to resort to flipping a coin to choose between two items on a menu. normally, this is an excercise in seeing how you feel with that choice, but it didn't have any effect. fortunately, the waiter was on hand to recomend the other choice.
i' ve come to realise that i do have some innate belief in magic, and that giving up choices to random events will provide you with the answer you require. this anecdote contradicts that, but it still reassures me that a random decision will always be the right one. even better, if it is just random, then i will experiance things i would not have done if i'd have chosen the one i want. i'm perfectly happy when the meal arrives, even if it was a random choice. the next step is to be perfectly happy with a choice i've made myself.